[ Originally Posted Sept 26, 2000 ]
There isn’t any official news to report today. No news from the insurance company – yet. I’m going to make a web page just to document the process of getting insurance approval (or denial), because there is so much to it and I don’t want to gum up my journal with all the gory/boring details.
I’ve had more energy lately and have been “spring cleaning”. I always do my spring cleaning in late summer/early fall, because I love to have a nice clean house for Autumm/Holidays.
I’ve been eating less than I did during the summer. I’m sure this has to do with the “seasonal depression” I often get during the summer months. I really can’t stand the heat, and we don’t have air conditioning (yet), so I just kind of “shut down” during the summer. This year I managed to gain about 30 pounds while in “shut down mode” – it’s kind of amazing, really, considering I helped my sister move in August – I’m sure that burned up a heap of calories!
My feelings & outlook right now are mostly positive. The prospect of this surgery has given me a lot of hope for the future, where before I had little. I was VERY unsure of what the future held for me before I learned about this surgery. I not only dreaded another (failed) diet, but felt in my heart I would never be able to lose this excess weight. I had even worse fears about my diabetes. It was/is not under control and I worried about all the bad things; loss of sensation, loss of limbs, organ damage, eye damage, loss of sight, heart problems, advanced rate of aging . . . it seemed like a slow & painful, yet EARLY death was in store for me.
But according to the history of this procedure, every person who had diabetes before this procedure is essentially cured of it within 2 months of the operation. Their blood glucose numbers are normal with no insulin or medication whatsoever.
I feel that it is important to have this surgery and to have it as soon as possible. Every day that I live with diabetes, my body is being harmed internally. Lately it’s been MOSTLY under control, knock on wood. I look forward to it being under control NATURALLY, without medication and the “lovely” side effects of glucophage.
There are a lot more seemingly-minor things I am looking forward to that have nothing to do with my health but everything to do with quality of life. I will write about them in my next entry.
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